Oh the life of a working baseball mother....

So we can all sit back and say.  What is she complaining about?  I do that all the time.  Well, I am sure you do, but I seem to catch the guff so I'm blogging about it :)  That's what I do best right?  I write my words out on paper...  or virtual paper as we have it...  and you all can choose to read it or let it go.  

As I'm sure you all know by now within the past 9 months Leon and I have had some MAJOR changes in our life.  I went from a job where I was comfortable, with a lot of time of and Mommy flexibility to a job where I was not quite familiar with what I was doing and no time off to begin with.  Things are gradually getting better, but it is still quite different than it used to be.  Leon is pulling a lot of Mommy duties and sometimes it puts him in a bad situation, but we sacrifice for our children.  Right?

The same goes with money, time and friends.  Number one is money.  True, 9 months ago I gave my kids everything they asked for.  Times have changed.  They don't get all of the new and improved gadgets anymore.  They get what they need and some special things based on behavior and special rewards or birthdays, etc.  Other things that some kids don't get that we do keep that some people might frown on is the extras as far as piano lessons, tumbling classes and traveling baseball.  Well, I am stepping on my soap box right now.  I will do what it takes to get my kids these things.  In my mind my kids need to be well rounded, and to be well rounded I will give them these few extra activities as long as they excel at them.  If Lawrence truly SUCKED at piano and hated it and was not putting forth any effort I would not waste my money OR his teacher's time.  It is something he likes to do.  He loves his teacher and pays attention.  Arts are something that will always be supported in our household and if I have to work four jobs to pay for them I will.  Traveling baseball...  yes it's expensive.  It's going to get worse.  We have seen nothing yet.  This pools over in to time as well.  I have spent the past two weeks helping his team with fundraisers, putting together sponsorship posters, going to tournaments, getting Lawrence to practices, emailing parents, all that fun stuff.  The team finally got enough money to get in to the tournaments and now we are trying desperately to get him some personal business sponsorships just to get his own traveling expenses paid.  Uniform expenses, traveling, hotels, etc.  It is an expense.  Last year it wasn't an issue, this year it is.  BUT we didn't pull him off the team because he earned his spot.  How could we tell him that we couldn't let him be on a team where he earned a spot?  SO, I'll be spending more of my time this week searching out friends and family trying to get him sponsored up for his Casper tournament.

Friends.  I am so sorry.  I have not been anywhere around AT ALL for the past few months.  Mommy life has consumed me.  Really though, I should not have to be apologizing.  If you are my true friend you understand that the life of a working mother is a tough one.  It consumes you.  I fall asleep on my couch every night with my head on my keyboard.  I don't remember the last time I was able to go to my actual bed before 11 pm without worrying about something that didn't get done that day or what I needed to ask the daycare about in the morning or if the budget got done for tomorrow.  It is really for the birds and not all that it's cracked up to be.  

So in short, let me just say.  If I didn't see your post, your blog, or your pin I'm sorry.  I just haven't had time and I hope you understand.  I try to catch as much as I can on my phone.  Baseball season will be over soon... (UNLESS WE WIN!!!!)  Then I can at least go to bed at a decent time :)  

Thank you for your support if you have committed to Lawrence or his team.  We'll have something for you at the end of the season.