Right now my life is TOTALLY insane. First and foremost I am devastated. Absolutely devastated right now because my sister is moving to North Dakota in two days. I keep thinking it's not really going to happen. It can't happen, she really isn't going to go is she? As I'm typing this I'm trying hard to see the screen. In my whole 36 years I have only lived away for my sister for a total of 5 months. She is my complete and total best friend. We know everything about each other. Hair color, length, shoe size, clothing size, bra size, boyfriend's names in high school, we know each other's daily schedules. I don't know what I'll do without her here. I know that when you open her front door you have to turn the knob a certain way, and where certain things are kept that no one else would know. I don't want someone else to know these tricks of the trade up in North Dakota. I just don't want them to go. Is it selfish? Oh absolutely, but it's true. I am family based. I can't survive without them around. Leon freaks out on me all of the time, but it's just the way I was raised. I even dropped out of a full college scholarship in Music Ed because I was scared to move away from my family. My family means everything to me. This is killing me, ripping my heart out and it's going to take me a long time to heal. Sure, we can visit. They will come back and visit. It just won't be the same.
Next up, I'm going back to school. A friend of mine graduated in May and as I sat through her graduation I cried to myself and thought what a failure I was. How I had done nothing with myself. I was smarter than this. So now, I'm going back. I have been trying my hardest to get back into the Information Technology field and without a degree no one is interested. What everyone is saying is experience is not enough. Apparently a self taught Systems Analyst is not on anyone's radar. For now, I will work full time and go to school full time. This semester I plan to take 12 credit hours but I have registered for some IT Classes of software programs I am already trained in. They will basically be refresher courses so hopefully it will ease me back into the "back to school" phase. I will hopefully be able to carry on the Cloud 9 CaKery business at least with some Scottsbluff Winter Farmer's Markets and a few special orders. If I am unable to continue working and going to school, I may have to visit the option of working part time. As of right now, I have no intention of slowing down, but my education will come first. I am committed to my degree!
Last, but certainly not least, Miss K. She is taking her first trip to the actual Shriner's Hospital for Crippled Children on August 25th. Besides dealing with scheduling time off at work and making sure that everything is covered there, we have to be sure the kids are covered and things are handled here. Animals, school schedules, two jobs for Leon and one for myself, school starts one week before for Lawrence, Kherington and myself, piano lessons to be rescheduled, medial records to find and send to the hospital, hope and pray that dance lessons don't start that week, arrange all of the final details with the local Shrine Temple. SO much to do within a month. Absolutely insane.
For Kherington's trip and her future trips to Shriner's we have set up a GOFUNDME account to help with any extra expenses above the Shrine Temple checks. We would be absolutely lost without the Shriner's Hospitals and we will forever be grateful for the Shriner that we found who has helped us to get Kherington referred to Minnesota. It is truly amazing. The countdown is on. If you would like to check out Miss K's GOFUNDME page and donate to help, everything will go directly into her savings account at the Sugar Valley Credit Union. If you don't want to donate online, you can message me for an address to mail it, I'll come pick it up, or you can take it directly to the bank and deposit it into her account anonymously. You can click on the link below to check out her page.
http://www.gofundme.com/Miss-Ks-Shriner-Trip
So with ALL of this said, sometimes a girl just has to cry. Sometimes, a girl has to shed a tear. I'll be doing a lot of that the next few days, so if you see me I might just need a hug. Tonight, I just needed some chat time with a friend and a little music to get all of these things off of my mind. He really does help, even though he doesn't know it all the time, but he's one of the best at that job and I'm pretty thankful for that. Friends tend to help in the end.
