Every single day we are forced to play the hand that life has dealt us. Well I have not been playing that hand very well and I apologize. Today I can finally, FINALLY explain somewhat why I have been such a grouchy old bitch. (Besides my normal personality of course!)
So, over the past year I have gone back and forth with my doctors about my gall bladder. I have had the HIDA Scans, the ultra sounds, the blood tests, tried eating the different foods, the pain killers... ALL of it. Overall it was decided that my gall bladder was abnormal but not abnormal enough to remove so I was told to deal with it. With pain killers. Thankfully I have an AWESOME Dr, who doesn't over prescribe the painkillers. He wanted the gall bladder to come out but could only do what the surgeon told him to do. So... that was that.
Well, over the months (yes months, this started last August) the pain was getting far worse. Not to mention the pain was on the wrong side of my body. I was a complete and total bitch to anyone around me for about three weeks out of the month. After talking to Leon about it and thinking about when these stabbing pains were happening each month I decided I thought it had to do with my woman calendar (I'm trying to be less gross about it!). So I called my doctor and told him I thought I had some cysts and without asking questions scheduled me for some ultrasounds. The results came in and I had no cysts. Good and bad. Damn it. Still no answers. The one thing they did find was varicose veins in my pelvic region. This was caused from the severe DVT I had back in 2009 that started in my abdomen. They said nothing can be done about that, just again, pain killers.
Well I was about tired of the pain killers answer. So, finally the Dr and I had a heart to heart. We tracked it all out on the calendar because at this point I had been writing down how many days of pain, where there was pain, when I had to take a pill, when I even had bowel movements. It was that bad. I had to track it all. At that point he had it down and he laid it all out on the table. He said he was certain I had Endometreosis and that he was sure it had spread into the organs on the left side of my body. If that was the case I would be going in for a full hysterectomy. Well. Fan-FREAKING-tastic. So we go from gall bladder removal to 6 weeks off work. Nice. He did say depending on the intensity of the endometreosis the surgery may not be so horrible and I may not miss that much work so that gave me some hope.
A month later I finally got in to see a gynecologist. She is the one who helped my doctor do the emergency C-Section with Kherington. I do not trust many doctors out here but I trust her. So I waited until she was available. After long conversations and one feel that about threw me off the table in pain she was convinced without any tests. She has said for now we are going with outpatient surgery. She will be exploring to see how deep and spread out it is. Laproscopic is her goal, she said it is common but all of my factors make me high risk. (AWESOME YAY!) The MTHFR that I have is a uncommon string of MTHFR and so with that I cannot have any hormone treatment at all. I have to have blood thinners during the surgery because they are worried about me clotting, and if it is spread I'll be in overnight and we may still be dealing with hysterectomy. If we do hysterectomy I'm still on no hormones. (Ya'll better watch out if that's the case LOL!)
SO... with that said I'm sorry I'm such a bitch lately. Most likely I'm in pain and I'm smiling through it. I've been feeling like shit for about 11 months straight but I'm dealing with it. If I've canceled plans on you I apologize. I am glad that we finally have answers. It has been hurting me for a long long time. I am so glad that I have Leon here to support me and accept me even when I want to shoot him in the face because my pain is so horrible and I just want someone to hurt as bad as me. I know this is a common thing and no one should feel sorry for me. I just want people to know I am sorry for being such a crab lately!
Thanks everyone for everything you have done lately!!
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