A lot of people have a recipe for success. Mine is pretty much a recipe for disaster, but I get through it. Yep, I have lost weight. A lot of weight. However, as wonderful as it looks it has not been all wonderful. It's not all fun and games. As much as I would love for this to be the best part of my life, I have learned a hard lesson in the past 6 months and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
The best and worst parts of social media is all of the people who are watching your life. Every single minute. True, you control what you put out there for everyone to see. True, most people make their lives seem to be so totally awesome on Facebook. I am guilty, I post mostly the good things. I get on the train of touchy subjects, and I ride farther than I should. It seems you start living your social media life. Not your real life. All of your conversations begin with, "did you see what so and so posted today". I know more about people now than I ever have before. It is like a drug for me. I used to STRIVE on gossip! I have more "friends" than I can ever remember in my life! When I go through to clean people out, I find that I really DO know these people and talk to most of them! So, with that said. Everything you post brings attention... everything. Then you post something that everyone likes and you get excited! So far, this attention has been wonderful. I have never dreamed I would hear some of the compliments I have gotten. I have connected with so many old friends, I feel like I never left home in Wood River. After our reunion in September I cried. I cried all the way home, Wood River to Scottsbluff. I know, how stupid. High School was over 15 years ago now! I missed them all the minute I left. I missed how we could hug each other, cry with each other, laugh with each other, dance with each other like we never left. Like we were family. This is where I get in trouble. I like the attention, I like the people in my life. Well, not everyone feels that way. I am a flirt by nature. OOPS my bad... It just so happens that now that I have lost weight when I flirt people take it seriously. DOUBLE OOPS! So, it will take some work on my part I guess. I have to learn to live my life for me and my family, no matter what it may seem like to someone else. When I work out I am working out for myself and no one else. Not to look good for the people at the bar who can't have me. Not to show off to the people on the machine next to me when I keep up with them. I have to stop doing it for everything else and just do it for myself. I need to eat less for myself, exercise for myself and get myself straight before I move on to anything else. The past few weeks have put my life into perspective and I realized that my success lately has been my failure. My MAJOR failure. It's turning around, things are getting better... life has it's obstacles and we have to figure out how to face them. One thing I have learned. Never be afraid. Never be afraid to ask for help, to talk to someone about your problems. If you need the help, there will always be someone there to talk! In three short weeks we will be headed to Vegas. God help those people because I will be taking it all in and enjoying my little honeymoon that we never had! Next blog will be less confusing and happy... I promise!
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